Thank you to Amy Sonnichsen and Christa Desir for hosting the My So Called Teenage Life Blog Hop. In this blog hop we are supposed to post our journal entries or bad poetry from our teenage years. BTW, I love the TV series, My So Called Life :)Sep 7
School started last week. I really feel like I have no friends, but it's getting better. The more I talk to people the better things become. I can think of almost all my classes were I can talk to someone. I now sit with Nathan's friends at lunch (they just play dungeons and dragons and stuff).
Oh, one guy I used to know from 6th grade has excel home room and lunch with me. Since I talked with him he follows me to class and kind of acts real interested. I would like him as a friend but I don't want him to try anything. I kind of have my heart set on Ryan. I've been doing a lot of thinking about him lately. Even though I still don't feel good enough for him I can't keep being impervious to the cute things he does. Like last year he followed me to the mail box, and lately he's been always compliementing me, walking with me to the car and stuff. He opens the door for me. How can I be so indifferent? It's driving me nuts. I think (I know) I have a crush. I don't know what to do. Should I jump? Should I still remain indifferent? I must let him know somehow but I dont want to be let down or teased by other people. Why does he llike me? I hate having a crush because I long for him to stop by and visit. I even leave the window open all the time to hear if he's coming. I look for his bike or car at our house, and I walk by his house sometimes to see if he's there.
Once he came up stairs to say, "hi." I loved that (though I still acted as a friend). Now the next time I'm going to react with the same interest as he does to me. I talk to him a lot and show him subtle signs but now I'm going to be more prominent. Let's hope I don't act giddy, or stupid.
Did you have a high school crush?
I remember what it was like to have a crush like this, always looking to see if they're home when you get the chance. What I liked about this was your frustration about having a crush. I used to be frustrated by having them too because you know you're more likely to do something embarrassing or stupid when you have these feelings.
ReplyDeleteThanks L.G. reading this over I feel like some kind of stalker. Ha ha! But, that is what infatuation can do to a person, especially when you are younger. It has been a real eye-opener going back and reading my old diary.
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I want to hear the end of this story, did you and Ryan get together or what? BTW, this is far better than the whining I did in my teenage journal (which was a Harry Potter one before Harry Potter was cool). This blog hop has been fun, funny how the teenage mind works!
ReplyDeleteYes we did get together, thanks for asking!
DeleteI think journals are good for whining too, hehe. They can be very theraputic that way! This blog has has been a lot of fun, although I feel like I have exposed a bit of my soul here. :)
Andrea
I love this it is the cutest thing ever, sounds like some afternoon teenage drama show. Don't worry you weren't a stalker, my friends still get that infatuated :)
ReplyDeleteI think most teen girls can relate to acting and thinking like that when they've got a crush on someone and don't know if it's requited. It reminds me a bit of my first love, a guy I had a huge puppy love crush on for years, from 7th grade to even after I moved away. In hindsight, I can't understand why I liked him THAT much when he clearly wasn't as into me in return.
ReplyDelete"Now I'm going to be more prominent." that made me smile. Oh, how girls can dissect the minutia of determining "a crush."
ReplyDeleteWhat a super fun blog hop!
J.A. asked my question, so I'll ask further. Did it last very long?
ReplyDeleteOh my word, this sounds like it could've come out of my journal! I was always obsessing about what people thought of me and it if it was right or not for me to like a certain person. Yes, I had huge crushes in high school -- but that's all they ever were. I didn't have a boyfriend until college. Sometimes I think it was better that way. :)
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for participating. I love your entry!!
Fun blog hop! Oh, the drama of teenage life! I still think too much about what other people think of me. I had a few crushes. Yet nothing ever came of them because I was way too shy.
ReplyDeleteFunny - I love how you loved that he said 'hi.' WHY were we so obsessed at that age? Must be the hormones...
ReplyDeleteOh wow. Thank you for posting this! I kept a diary faithfully from sixth grade when I got one from a friend - with a lock and key and all - for my birthday. Your entry could have easily been taken from one of my diaries in high school. I'm so glad I'm not the only one who obsessed over boys like this!
ReplyDeleteAnd, I also loved My So Called Life. While on bedrest with my little monkey I rented the entire season from Netflix and watched with nostalgic feelings the whole time. It still resonated. So sad there was just one season.
What a great idea for a blog hop. I don't think you sounded like a stalker at all, it's perfectly normal to think that way about a person you like. We forget that teenagers overthink everything and place a ton of importance on every little gesture and comment. It's what being young and in love is all about -- and obviously if you got the guy then you were doing something right!
ReplyDeleteI had a bunch of high school crushes (and my college crush was epic -- talk about infatuation!) but my journals are an odd jumble of song lyrics and TV quotes and tangents (and a ton of profanity) so I probably can't post anything. But this was a very interesting peek into the life of teenage Andrea. Thanks for sharing!
Oh boy, did I ever have a high school crush...three long years!
ReplyDeleteYou got me thinking about certain moments of my teenage life. Thanks for sharing this.
ReplyDeleteI love this one! It sounds like you did a good job of playing it cool.
ReplyDeleteThis is so simple and beautiful and true. Everything was such a BIG deal back then, wasn't it?
ReplyDeleteMy So Called Life was really good. I don't remember keeping a journal as a teen. I do remember writing sad poetry.
ReplyDeleteI feel pathetic, but the answer is no to having a serious crush. At least none that I recall. That's sad, really.
ReplyDeleteThis is so perfect--- I remember those feelings. We could solve the energy crisis if we could bottle up the energy of those angsty teens.
ReplyDeleteWell this blog hop looks like fun. Teen thoughts and writing are so funny sometimes.
ReplyDeleteThis was so much fun to read! Thanks for sharing!
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It's so cool to be able to look back and read what you felt way back when. I wish I had kept a journal because there's so much I already can't remember. Thanks for sharing! :)
ReplyDeleteAw, that's so sweet! It sounds like you had a good head on your shoulders back then (I'm pretty sure I didn't!). :-)
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